My Life Ep.3: Hello everybody! Today is Holy Tuesday. I want to observe Holy Week in a way that I’ll be posting blog entries that are somehow inspirational, just like yesterday in my Rowjiefully Yours post entitled, “Inspirational”.

Anyway, I somehow feel excited whenever I need to post an entry under “My Life” department. The question “how are you Rowjie” always come to my mind whenever I need to post an entry in this department. It’s my way of sharing some stories in my life to others. But beside that, I really want to be honest in writing what I want here. So somehow, this serves an outlet for me.

As I mentioned, this week is “Holy Week”. No classes and offices from Holy Thursday up to Black Saturday. Actually, I just stay at home during those days, but I go to church on Good Friday. I grew up in an environment where these days are really considered sacred. But as years pass by, I notice that the observance of these days is starting to become different. Oops… I’ll be reserving this topic for a “Points of View” episode tomorrow.

Anyway, I think I mentioned in my previous “My Life” entry that I already have plans of leaving my current work. I have talked already to my supervisor. Actually, she is really a good person. I am somehow happy to know that she still doesn’t want to lose me. Maybe because there are still a lot of projects coming soon. But I did not promise that I can stay in the company up to December. It’s hard to promise. That’s why I did not promise anything to her because I don’t want to break promises.

But I know that I have the final decision whether I still like to stay or not. But of course, there are a lot of factors I need to consider in coming up with a decision. Yah, I don’t want to be unfair.

Actually, I am in the middle of confusion again. I don’t know if this is the path I want as I grow up. Do I really like to be a programmer? Will I enjoy my life if I stay as a programmer forever?

It seems like something is telling me to “be true to yourself… life’s too short!”. I am in the point in my life where I want to explore more things… maybe it’s a way of self discovery. And as I mentioned in a previous blog entry, I want to reach out to other people. I want to break the barrier between me and the many interesting people around me. That wall is my extreme shyness, and I am willing to lessen, if not eliminate, it.

Oh well, I need a break to think about things, rearrange my life, and discover myself, as well as others.