I’ve been thinking a lot for the past week…

I didn’t know what happened but I just found myself in a bad mood last Saturday while I was assisting in an Excel training held in our office. It was a mixed feeling of irritation, disappointment, and laziness. Afterwards, I decided to file a two day vacation leave for the next two working days.

The day is really tireful but I still wanted to meet some friends that night as a way of releasing whatever I felt that day. Good thing that I was able to invite two friends to eat dinner and have some good time afterwards. We just caught ourselves doing something together for the first time. It was a perfect time for talking about serious and matured topics. Everyone was spontaneous. I felt that it just shows that (even though we might act childishly) we are somehow matured enough. It actually feels good and I am looking forward for another session of conversations.

I wwas still having second thoughts if I will realy go on vacation leave for two days. It was Monday morning when I finally decided to go on leave. I tried to forget about work first. And again, I tried to visit for job search sites again after updating my resume. Officially, I am now open to looking for other opportunities. This feeling just came naturally.

I keep asking myself why am I doing this. But as much as possible, I don’t want to think anything negative about my present job. As they, no job or work place is perfect. Rather, I want to think this stage in my life as a career move… or a time for growth. I suddenly thought about my future and what I want to do. I know that there is more to learn.

But sometimes, I still think if what I’m doing is right. Because leaving this job also means leaving wonderful people that I’ve been working with for the past two years. And entering a new world means another period of adjustment. I have attempted leaving my work for a lot of times already but the responsibilities that I will leave behind were the ones that stopped me. Now, I want to think of myself this time and I don’t think that I am selfish for that reason.

As I said, I have now started looking for other opportunities and I am hoping that I will find the right one soon. When it comes, that’s the time I’ll be moving forward.

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